Emotional evning..
The words have been drained from this pencil
Sweet words that I want to give you
And I can't sleep
I need to tell you
Goodnight
When we're together, I feel perfect
When I'm pulled away from you, I fall apart
All you say is sacred to me
Your eyes are so blue
I can't look away
As we lay in the stillness
You whisper to me
Amy, marry me
Promise you'll stay with me
Oh you don't have to ask me
You know you're all that I live for
You know I'd die just to hold you
Stay with you
Somehow I'll show you
That you are my night sky
I've always been right behind you
Now I'll always be right beside you
So many nights I cried myself to sleep
Now that you love me, I love myself
I never thought I would say this
I never thought there'd be
You
Drives me to tears every time i hear it.
Lifes fucked up
I was sitting on my bed today, thinkin about why this life choosed me
Is there any reason, or is this just how it should be?
I mean sometimes you just want to blow your head off with a gun
Or just get the hell away, just pack your things and run
"If you just believe" i heard that so many times
Believe in what? It's like trying to see without eyes
But its damn hard to believe it, people die 24/7
And I dont blame God for this, I put all the blame on the Devil
Cause from God comes nothing bad, but after the D comes evil
I just wonder what can I do, im a single person alone to be
Cause really I didnt chose this life, this life choosed me
By Nina.
Lord
Lord though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I'm not scared cause You're holding my breath
I only fear that I don't have enough time left
To tell the world that there's no time left
- Just have faith
I miss it.
I may sound dramatic, but .. today it's one month ago.
One month ago I was sitting on the ground outside the hotel in Hurghada Egypt, watching the people, feeling the air, breathing happiness. Really, everything bad that I had felt when i was back home , was completly gone.
This last year of my life, totally ruined my soul
I didnt think I was gonna be able to feel alright again ever
Because of that, I was so worried about going to Egypt. Cause I thought things would get worse, worse in the way that I would start think about everything bad and just let the pain eat me from the inside and out, while I was alone.
But it didn't happen. This trip to Egypt made me hole again, even if it was just for a while. It took just one second, and I felt like a new person.
That's why it hurted so much to go home. When the plane leaved the ground, tears were pouring down my cheeks and my heart suddenly got cold like stone. That's when I realised, I don't belong here...
And now, I cant wait til i go back. 
If somebody ask me today , " Nina, how was Egypt " I anwser, " It was heaven "
Cause, it was. It really was.
Elissa - Ahla donia
Rest in peace
Jimmy Johansson
När jag var kring elva år så bodde Jimmy hos oss ett år.
Vi kom så nära varann trotts att jag var så liten, så det tog inte lång tid innan jag kallade honom bror & vi blev som halvsyskon utan att ha samma föräldrar. När han flyttade blev det otroligt tomt jag & Mattias min riktiga bror saknade honom otroligt mycket, det var ju "brorsan" liksom.
Vi höll kontakten med tillslut rann det ut i sanden. Det gick år innan jag träffade honom men så förra året när Jimmys låtsaspappa dog så träffades vi på begravningen och han kallade mig fortfarande lillasyster.
Jag har alltid haft minnet av honom och jag kommer alltid ha det kvar.
Jimmy dog igår.
Beklagar stort till Jimmys Mor Carina & lillasyster Emelie.
Stay strong, we'll see him in heaven.
Race against time
Never did you tell me that life ain't a game
Maybe if you told me this shit might be changed
I must set this whole world on fire´
If I control my destiny, maybe one day I'll give this world the best of me
dedicated to you :)
It's like comedy man, are u still stupid or does it ring a bell?
Hmm.. I've got an idea, u should write a book full of lies?
But then the only people who would buy it would be people without eyes!
Maan u really succeeded with getting me mad.
Or wait, that's not what u wanted, u wanted me sad?
Crying and crawling asking for you to hold me again, right?
Damn I would rather eat shit than hold u tight!
Can u believe this coming from "little sweet me"?
If you can't, I understand, Cause Im not who I used to be.
Oh God, I wish I wasnt such a good girlfriend back in the days
Cause now its "good girl gone bad" in all kinds of ways
And btw, it's so fun to see how u try to get me jealous of you
Haha believe me, you'd be the jealous one, if u only knew
Well well, we all know I was the best thing u had
So there's no need for you fake it with saying something bad
Don't do like u used to, and anwser back on this one, Okey?
No need for ur Eminem inspired rhymes, this was just for fun. Pusshey
yeya
Yeah, I know, Im smiling and keepin my head high
Walking with big steps ready to fly
It's cause I just wanna go far away from this place
But no matter where I go, I'm hunted by your face
Cant wait til this shit's over, cause it feels like dying
I just wanna be happy again, im so sick of crying
I wish I could get rid of my thoughts and clean up my mind
Cause they're twirlin inside my head, they're making me blind
how was it?
It just took me 3 seconds to start to like you
A couple of minutes to get to know you
10 minutes to start beliving your words
20 minutes to be your girl
And after half an hour I fell inlove
One hour later everything was perfect
In that moment of perfection, everything started falling apart.
Cause it really was to good to be true.
And that's what I realized, that all of it was a lie.
The thing is, it only took me less than one second to get over u.
all I wanted to say with this is ..
FUCKING TRUST NOBODY!
Rihanna, I couldn't say it better myself.
Tryin' to apologize, you're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out
And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
When I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show, really had me going
But now it's time to go curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show very entertainin'
But it's over now go on and take a bow
Grab your clothes and get gone, you better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' about, " girl, I love you, you're the one "
This just looks like a re-run, Please, what else is on
Ohh, and the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
My girls. I love you
Anna
No other girl could ever understand me the way you do.
Well they could understand me, but not like you
When I am down you always try your hardest to lift me up again
so this is a promise from me to you;
I will back you up no matter what, I will stay by your side whatever you do
cause I can't live if living is without you
Fredrika
I've never meet a person who cares about me as much as you do in a friendly way
I love you for beeing who you are, and for trying to help me while I wasn't listening
You're the perfect example of a reliable friend and the only thing I can do right now is thank God for having you by my side.
Cecilia, Pernilla, Anders, Sivert, Krille + the rest of the family
I thank you Cecilia and you're family for always welcoming me in your home
I thank you all for always making me feel safe
I thank you all for taking me as a family member and for loving me this much
Love you all.
Payback
I'm gonna tell you something.
These last months, I've lied to you about loving you.
I've been with you for only one reason, and that's fear.
I hope u realise what you've done, but I don't think u will.
If you read my blog a couple of days, weeks and months earlier you'll see hidden messages.
ex.
"If you ever let me down I will put you to the ground"
I can only say one more thing;
Payback, is a bitch.
Father
It seems like this world ain't getting any better
I've spent so many nights wonderin' when will it end
When will the day come when happiness begins
I'm running the race but it seems too hard to win
I'm sick of mourning my stomach is throwing up in the morning
I'm calling for help and watching it melt away
My heart's been put on display and put away In many ways,
many times I told myself it was ok
And anger was the price that was paid
While these faded dreams just screamed to bring them home
The burden was too heavy I kept running from the throne
I can't take it any longer
I can taste my spirit hunger
God please help me get home
Lord I don't know what I'm struggling for
There's got to be more
Than this life I know
But still I'm here fighting to never give up
I find strength in Your love
And You will see me through
I'm falling and I can't turn back
Today I died inside
I really gave it my all but it wasn't enough
Readers!
I'm going to sleep now so today I'm not going to update anything else than this..
What goes comes around
if you're nice to me, I'll be nice to you.
if you try to help me, I will try to help you.
if you try to understand me, I will try to understand you to.
if you're not honest with me, I'm not gon´ be honest with you.
if you make me sad, I will make you sad to
if you let me down I will put you to the ground.
and if you lie, I will fight for the thruth.
stupid stupid stupid
thank you, I think you made my life a little easier.
cause from now on I'm not gonna trust anyone. including you.
Drama world
why can't people be a little less complicated?!
It's always the same old story, the same old thing, the same old SHIT over and over again
stop whining about old crap and do something about it ffs
Hahahahaha oh crap what's up with my brain, feels like I'm totally flipping out
Weeell maybe I am? ... what I mean maybe? ofcorse I'm flipping, haha no doubt
no but really .. haha. I'm not into this crap anymore
You got me hypnotized
You took me by surprise just like a rainbow in the night
When I looked in your eyes I could see diamonds shining bright
I never realized you'd be the one to make it right
You got me hypnotized before my life was black and white
You and me make a team I want you near me every day
Last night I had a dream: You went away
Don't breok my heart don't let me down
Don't break my heart don't make me frown
We're getting serious life by your side can be so nice
You're so mysterious yesterday you were cold as ice
I wonder how you feel if all your feelings is the same
When are your smiles for real? Or is it a game?
Babybabybaby
When love was only in my mind, I realize
Ain't no second chance
You've got to hold on to romance, don't let it slide
There's a special kind of magic in the air
When you find another heart that needs to share
Baby, come to me, let me put my arms around you
This was meant to be and I'm so glad I found you
Need you every day, gotta have your love around me
Baby, always stay 'cause I can't go back to livin' without you
Spendin' every dime, to keep you talkin' on the line
That's how it was
And all those walks together out in any kind of weather
Just because
There's a brand-new way of looking at your life
When you know that I'll be standing by your side
The nights can be cold
There's a chill to every evenin' when you're all alone
Don't worry no more
'cause soon you know that I'll be there to keep you warm
